I woke up last night and couldn’t get back to sleep, so my brain decided to get active solving a current problem for me; what to wear to the employees awards event at work. I started mentally scanning my clothes to figure out just the right outfit that looks special enough to wear as the event MC and also comfortable enough for dancing, without the need to get something new. I nominated 2 outfits and checked with my friend today, who in turn helped me make the cut.

I am telling you this story because I noticed that I have been lately obsessing about a relationship in my life. Whenever there is an idle moment in the day, I start thinking about what they said and what I said, and this started to annoy me. The outfit story, however, made me finally realize that it’s simply not an obsession. My brain believes this relationship is a problem to solve. It keeps running scripts and what-if and if-only scenarios to help me reach peace about it.

I felt relief when I got this. It’s clear to me now. I have two choices; I either start a difficult conversation with the other party in the relationship or accept the fact that mistakes happened and things changed, maybe forever. I need to decide how important this relationship is to me and act accordingly.

Meanwhile, I can pray on it and put my mind to peace. It’s a problem at a whole another plane. The spiritual plane. Thinking it over will not make it disappear.