I skimmed through my copy of A Course in Miracles this morning hoping to find a relief of the heaviness I was feeling.

I noticed my recently highlighted passages in chapters 12, 13, and 14 and realized that the feeling was guilt. I brought yesterday’s events to today and couldn’t forgive myself for how I behaved with other people in my life. I complained, I was aggressive and I even gossiped. But A Course in Miracles says God always sees us as innocent and when we hold on to our guilt we cannot see our light. We are not our mistakes, although that does not mean we don’t own them or try to rectify them. We take action while having the conviction that our mistakes do not diminish our worthiness of love.

An affirmation that I keep repeating is: “The more I love myself tenderly, the more love I have to give to others & feel God inside me”. My guilt made me harsh on myself and deemed me unworthy of love from myself or from others. In this state, even If I receive kindness or praise, I brush it off. I don’t believe it, because I don’t even like myself at the moment. And what happens next? Becoming even meaner to others. What a vicious cycle.

Beware of such lies that your ego would have you believe with the purpose of separating you from the feeling of oneness with your fellow humans. Love yourself up and show it the tenderness it needs so that you can be loving to others. Otherwise, you will project your self-hatred outwards. You will see in others only the darkness that you think is inside you. Your belief in guilt obscures your light and your perception becomes clouded with judgment.

Remember my friend, only when you truly believe that nothing can touch your light that you can begin to see light in others.